Halfway there, halfway to go
It's 17th day of Ramadhan, about half way to go. So far fasting has been quite a blessing. I do not suffer from gastric as I imagined I would be. But from time to time, I suffer from procrastination. I remembered on the first day of Ramadhan, I aimed to finish 30 juzu of Quran in the whole month. But I guess that is quite ambitious eh? I also skipped taraweekh three times already. Worst still, I only went to congregational fajar prayer for only a handful of times.
But instead of doing more, I decided to do the other way round. Doing less. Why? Because I think I may apparently suffer from another type of spiritual diseases. A deadly one. Couple of days ago, on my way to mosque, I spotted a young guy cleaning his motorcycle and I thought to myself, "Should not he take advantage of this holy month to go to mosque?" Last night, I came across a post on FB wall warning against the sin of self-conceit and pride. I quickly remembered how I always feel when noticing people inside the mosque chatting with each other instead of doing meaningful things like reciting Quran or pray. I was annoyed by their conversation and felt superior.
This may be it. It is sickening to the point I want to shed my tears. From now on, I want to do less at mosque and more in my room instead. That's my pledge.
"O Allah swt, protect us against sickness of self-conceit, pride and other deadly spiritual and physical sickness"
